Post by kara de la mare on Jul 27, 2008 9:52:05 GMT -5
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I'm comin' home,
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hello, the name's,
kara, derives from either the pet form of karalynn or is a variant of cara, either way kara is an italian name for beloved and friend in irish. unbeknown to this amazingly beautiful meaning of a name for their daughter kara seemed plain, uselessly normal and nothing amazing. however kara fits her name well afterall she is a beloved friend and has italian and irish routes, it was practically made for her!
robyn, this feminine version of the masculine robin, a pet form of the name robert, was famously worn by robin hood and the red breasted bird. the distant translation of robyn is bright fame, coming from a number of different languages across the world. of course her parents didn't think of this in any way other than robyn was an intresting, popular name to keep her fitting into the circle of friends they hoped she would be in. robyn neither fits her very well, nor probably ever will even though she has a huge talent. kara never wants to be famous, just to be on a high social ladder although everyone dreams of fame now and then.
evangeline, this is another suprising link to her amazingly long winded heritage. evangeline is a greek name used lightly, usually masked by a nickname of 'evie'. however this name has a beautiful meaning of good news. good news beloved friend of bright fame so far seems only too freequent in it's similarity in the way kara lives her life. she's a bright person, warming up any reception and never really hated; and with that much talent she should be famous. evangeline was just another one of those names that her parents couldn't choose from and so used them all, it's pretty and again pretty usual.
honour, then the usual, popular, heard of names dissapeared. honour was her first choice, first name before kara popped into the picture. obviously the name simply means honour, oringionally from latin or roman routes and famously used by puritans as they favoured the name highly.
therefore kara robyn evangeline honour de la mare was created as her name. kara's full name (minus her last name) means honourable good news, beloved friend of bright fame which is beautifully fitting to the sort of person she is. she never really spills news which is bad, mostly just good and is loved as a friends my many people with extreme talent. unfortunately her parents didn't pick these names for that reason.
but people tend to call me, kar
I turned , eighteen
on , twentyfourth of august, virgo; the typical nice side of a virgo is being modest, shy, meticulous, reliable, practical, diligent, intelligant and analytical. now you'd think yeah her naming was a coincedence, she wouldn't fit to some stupid astrological thing would she? of course she would. kara would never think of herself highly, is pretty quiet compared to a lot of people, is terribly reliable and would never hurt anyone, she always does things practically efficiant and the the best of her ability, she's straight A's all of the time and adores sitting and pondering over what will happen and what things mean. typically theres a bad side too; fussy, worrier, overcritical, harsh, perfectionist and conservative. these are self explanitory and again fit to her closely.
so that means I've been ( attending / living ), fidm
when the days over i like me some , boys, heterosexual
[/color][/font][/size]I've seen a palace in London,
I've seen a castle in Wales,
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well, my hair is, dark and curly - when people look at kara's hair they're thrilled to see someone who is semi proud of her natural curl, afterall who wouldn't love extremely tight corkscrew curls? kara has the beautifully inheritance of her mothers tight curls but her fathers dark brown, practically black hair. although she has hair which is easy to cope with when you shove some anti-frizz on now and then it is slightly annoying when your hair doens't look all that amazing. kara has used the same shampoo for quite a while making her hair practically immune to it's "shine" promises however kara really doens't mind she never really has a very enthusiastic approach to hair care unless she's going somewhere pleasant. now and then she'll get out her old GHD straightners and take then through her hair although she really does prefer it curly as if doesn't go as frizzy and static as it does when it is straight, plus her hair has some sort of rebellion against her since it goes curly if any sort of humidity hits it or she leans on it. safe to say she should really just leave it curly.
despite the fact her hair is rebellious kara really does love playing with her hair, even if she isn't the girly girl everyone thinks she should be. she enjoys now and then pinning it back and letting it lie however it wants or shoving it into a messy pony tail and letting hair just fall out afterall why make sure everything is neat and tidy? kara has never actually died her hair because she thinks it is pretty pointless and not much else would suit her skin colouring and compliment her eyes as such. the dark rich brown sets off her greek and egyptian hertigage beautifully and her pale greyish blue eyes are easily spotted with the plane dark hair colour. it's a match made in heaven, well not really heaven more likely a bed but that is half irrelivant. dispite it's rebellious, frizzy, annoying state kara's hair does infact enhance her beauty even if she doens't believe it herself.
and I love my eyes, they're, pale icy blue violet grey - kara's eyes are usual, yet because of this they are her favourite feature. however unlike everyone else who loves there eyes so much they shove twenty layers of mascara and seven sticks of eyeliner on kara prefers to stay natural and let them be natural on their own. the colour of them is difficult to describe however it borders on ice blue, grey and slight violet. her eyes themselves are rather elite and unique as they border on a slightly open lengthy egyptain eye. her mother had similar eyes to her except more green than kara's eyes which confused the family quite a lot since rafael, her father, has very very dark brown eyes. however it is obvious that she is the daughter of her parents telling by her eyes as they reflect each parents so much it is an unmistakable match. kara wouldn't change her eyes even if she was made to although she's always loved green eyes and thinks that if she had to because the world was ending she'd choose a similar colour to her mothers eyes.
and my skin colors this really cool, dark mediteranian - kara was born to to greek and egyptian parents, both having that deep beautifully tanned mediteranian skin tone which is deathly wanted by all of those barbies who spent half their time in tanning salons. her skin colour is probably easier to describe as a brazillian tone because of it's natural tan and slightly darker than the normal mediteranian/olive skin.
mainly because I'm , greek & egyptian
I measure up to , five foot three
no Seattle Sutton's for me ! the scale says , one hundred and ten pounds
but it's kind of cool that I have , unusual eyes, a gentle kind face yet one that is still quite harsh.
and my style blows yours away , mostly baggy clothes which hide her shape or just pieces of clothing which catch her eye.
so over - all , (putting it all together)
when people look at kara's hair they're thrilled to see someone who is semi proud of her natural curl, afterall who wouldn't love extremely tight corkscrew curls? kara has the beautifully inheritance of her mothers tight curls but her fathers dark brown, practically black hair. although she has hair which is easy to cope with when you shove some anti-frizz on now and then it is slightly annoying when your hair doens't look all that amazing. kara has used the same shampoo for quite a while making her hair practically immune to it's "shine" promises however kara really doens't mind she never really has a very enthusiastic approach to hair care unless she's going somewhere pleasant. now and then she'll get out her old GHD straightners and take then through her hair although she really does prefer it curly as if doesn't go as frizzy and static as it does when it is straight, plus her hair has some sort of rebellion against her since it goes curly if any sort of humidity hits it or she leans on it. safe to say she should really just leave it curly.
despite the fact her hair is rebellious kara really does love playing with her hair, even if she isn't the girly girl everyone thinks she should be. she enjoys now and then pinning it back and letting it lie however it wants or shoving it into a messy pony tail and letting hair just fall out afterall why make sure everything is neat and tidy? kara has never actually died her hair because she thinks it is pretty pointless and not much else would suit her skin colouring and compliment her eyes as such. the dark rich brown sets off her greek and egyptian hertigage beautifully and her pale greyish blue eyes are easily spotted with the plane dark hair colour. it's a match made in heaven, well not really heaven more likely a bed but that is half irrelivant. dispite it's rebellious, frizzy, annoying state kara's hair does infact enhance her beauty even if she doens't believe it herself.
kara's eyes are usual, yet because of this they are her favourite feature. however unlike everyone else who loves there eyes so much they shove twenty layers of mascara and seven sticks of eyeliner on kara prefers to stay natural and let them be natural on their own. the colour of them is difficult to describe however it borders on ice blue, grey and slight violet. her eyes themselves are rather elite and unique as they border on a slightly open lengthy egyptain eye. her mother had similar eyes to her except more green than kara's eyes which confused the family quite a lot since rafael, her father, has very very dark brown eyes. however it is obvious that she is the daughter of her parents telling by her eyes as they reflect each parents so much it is an unmistakable match. kara wouldn't change her eyes even if she was made to although she's always loved green eyes and thinks that if she had to because the world was ending she'd choose a similar colour to her mothers eyes.
kara is no supermodel, actually she's rather short and she's not the thinnest person in the world but she has a healthy figure, not to mention curves in the right places. her legs are what she calls her worst feature as they are rather short, since she has a really long back, yet she doesn't hate them. actually kara is rather comfortable in her shoes, yeah she gets self conscious now and then but she isn't overly so that she wears the baggy clothes hiding every hint of shape she wears things which fit her. at 5ft3' kara isn't the tallest person, she's actually quite short yet she loves the fact she can be who she wants and still stand out because of a simple vertically challanged genes.
but people say I look like , jessica szohr
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[/size]but I'd rather wake up beside you
and breathe that ol' familiar smell,
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[/i][/size][/color] because, ooking at kara and how she's always surrounded by many people you would think that functioning on her own would be the most difficult thing that you could ever give her to do. yet you'd be suprised of how she thrives on being able to do things on her own, it gives her a sense of pride which she loves to live off. she's decided that this year, she needs no man on her side to carry her and do everything for her, she's going to do this entire year by herself. she enjoys being independant and she deffinatly has a class of her own to stand up on her own two feet unlike a lot of the barbie dolls who spend their entire school year fucking someone elses boyfriend just to get him as their own. not only does she act independant, she chooses to show it too always looking immaculately beautiful even if it's just popping out of the gates to buy some forgotten food item. well you have to look your best everday otherwise someone will catch you on a down day.
I love, bread, roses, wicked, singing, secrets, shoes, her hair, riding, sports, friends, boys, partying, chocolate, orange juice, watching random channels, being bored and inventing ways to make you not bored, sleep overs which aren't scheduled, traditions, lyrics, guitars, her brother, her grandmother, barley and maizie - her dogs, dressing up, messing around, having energy, food, destiny, children, cooking, homemade kebabs and pizzas, scheduled lunches, praise, museums, blue, grey, orange, orchids.
but I really despise, potatoes, being poor, labeling, reality tv, pointless music, 'helium' songs, snobs, jealousy, hurting, heartbreak, having someone love you who you don't love back;or vice versa, fighting, being alone, not being able to think, not finishing things, her father, her mother, her mothers clothing line, the dorm rules, academic schooling, heights, blood, being ill, pointlessness, bad remakes, reality.
I personally think I'm pretty good at, seeing the good in everything and therefore brightens up your day in a way which not many people could & an intelligant mind and is highly talented.
though I should really work on , practically like taking candy from a baby, she's that much of a push over. she always puts others before herself even if she's a little worse for wear. she's addicted to gossiping and has a tendancy to lie a lot.
people tend to tell me I'm ,
optomistic[/font] because, Happy go lucky, comes and it comes. Whatever the phrase Kara does it. If she's sitting and has the urge to knock down a wall, she'll probably go and knock down the wall. She adores her simple way of thinking about things like this, since everything else is always pondered on far too long. When she doesn't know what is going to happen next she is in her element, it is her favourite feeling in the world. She thrives on being able to do it her way, how she first thought of it. However after that, she despises anything spotaneous happening directly to her. She has a structure of days and it must happen like that unless something changes in her mind. Her "structure" usually is just thought up that morning first thing, which could be thought up as just being a come and it comes sort of action in a minor form. It is confusing completely how miss de la mare's mind works, she likes structure yet spontaneous actions, random incidences caused by her but not random enough to happen without her say so.
regal[/font] because, Despite her clowning around, childish outtake on aspects of life kara always carries herself poised and is always very sophistocated in how she handles different situations. Her style is also sophistocated, as is the way she analyses life itself. Her interests, although some deffinatly aren't, sometimes are sophistocated also, especially her book choices. She'd rather read some super thick boring babble than a cheesy girly gossip reading unlike a lot of girls her age and younger, she prefers to escape with some challange than an easy 200 page book about some girl who gets a boyfriend, gets pregnant, etc. kara is also known for her very sophistocated looking outfits when it is formal occasions hugging her figure yet never looking very sluty.
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but basically, I'm , looking at kara and how she's always surrounded by many people you would think that functioning on her own would be the most difficult thing that you could ever give her to do. yet you'd be suprised of how she thrives on being able to do things on her own, it gives her a sense of pride which she loves to live off. she's decided that this year, she needs no man on her side to carry her and do everything for her, she's going to do this entire year by herself. she enjoys being independant and she deffinatly has a class of her own to stand up on her own two feet unlike a lot of the barbie dolls who spend their entire school year fucking someone elses boyfriend just to get him as their own. not only does she act independant, she chooses to show it too always looking immaculately beautiful even if it's just popping out of the gates to buy some forgotten food item. well you have to look your best everday otherwise someone will catch you on a down day.
Happy go lucky, comes and it comes. Whatever the phrase Kara does it. If she's sitting and has the urge to knock down a wall, she'll probably go and knock down the wall. She adores her simple way of thinking about things like this, since everything else is always pondered on far too long. When she doesn't know what is going to happen next she is in her element, it is her favourite feeling in the world. She thrives on being able to do it her way, how she first thought of it. However after that, she despises anything spotaneous happening directly to her. She has a structure of days and it must happen like that unless something changes in her mind. Her "structure" usually is just thought up that morning first thing, which could be thought up as just being a come and it comes sort of action in a minor form. It is confusing completely how miss de la mare's mind works, she likes structure yet spontaneous actions, random incidences caused by her but not random enough to happen without her say so.
Even if she hasn't slept for days kara still has the most energy in the world, she's always up for running around and just being a crazy person. She is freequently described as being a clown, cheering everyone else up and just having very little inabitions. Her energy is also channeled into her lifetime dream, dancing and singing on a big famous stage as a leading lady. Practises last for hours, she's always zoned in at that point and works herself so much that she goes through twice the amount of water most people drink in a day.
Despite her clowning around, childish outtake on aspects of life kara always carries herself poised and is always very sophistocated in how she handles different situations. Her style is also sophistocated, as is the way she analyses life itself. Her interests, although some deffinatly aren't, sometimes are sophistocated also, especially her book choices. She'd rather read some super thick boring babble than a cheesy girly gossip reading unlike a lot of girls her age and younger, she prefers to escape with some challange than an easy 200 page book about some girl who gets a boyfriend, gets pregnant, etc. kara is also known for her very sophistocated looking outfits when it is formal occasions hugging her figure yet never looking very sluty.
Utterly the word to sum up msot of her actions, sacrificing her own happiness for others is her way of life. Even if she pulls herself into depression to keep someone else happy it is worth it in the end. Every inch of her is kindness and she doesn't seem to have a mean bone in her body although she has plenty of pregnant dogy bones to people who upset any of her close knit circle, mainly her family and ancient friends. She would d nothing to ruin their happiness in the world and would give her all. Also she rarely joins in games which offend others and cause grief because she knows how it feels.
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[/size]I never thought you could leave me,
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I came from, kyro (egypt) & agios gordios (corfu, greek island)
well my father .. ,
coming in at , 39
he supported us by ,
all in all, he's pretty , distant from the family, violent yet mysterious. not known in to much depth[/ul]
onto my mother ,
coming in at , 33
she helped too, by , waiting, cleaning, maid services
in the end she's quite , what you think of her.[/ul]
and then they had kids ,
then it was time for my own ,
and my one and only pet(s) , barley and maizie - one year and 3 months old german pointers.
the love life , kara's never had a good love life, actually to be honest she's never had a long term or short term relationship, she's too insecure about the rest of her life to deal with anything of this scale. yes she's had her fair share of mini relationshiping - the odd one night stand etc the most her relationships come to are a slight crush and she leaves it at that because of her fears.
& the good and the bad,
kyro was a busy city, the captial of egypt and a place where a seemingly amazing love story unfolded between the greek teenager and the handsome young egyptian man. rafael had recently moved from his home in london to move in next to his grandparents in order to find out about his heritage, plus he believed that england wasn't his place to dwell. kyro was where kara de la mare was born to a very young 15 year old rachael connoughton. kara was a mistake, an accident and not really wanted but that didn't mean rachael wasn't going to look after her daughter. like most young fathers 19 year old rafael de la mare broke up with rachael when he heard the news and rachael was set to go back home to athens to meet her father, who was going to take her to live with her aunt in corfu, yet rachael was definatly promising to let rafael see their baby. therefore when kara was old enough to travel on a plane she was taken to agios gordios, to a beautiful seaside resort owned by anastias, yiannis and phasilis connoughton. the greek family cherished the little girl who was brought up by her aunt anastias, also known as ana.
kara was never the child who was doted upon, she grew up in the world of unfortunate arguments, deffinatly not the most money and well it wans't the best place to grow up, especially when she was left alone. her mother kept getting back with rafael and then breaking up so she was shipped from egypt to greece and back again many times growing up. she practically was an expert at travelling by plane but it was wearing thin on money so usually she would be unfortunate and left with her father until her mother could come back and get her. this left kara with little understanding of being in a stable home and so when her aunt anastias and her mother moved to la when kara was five and she lived in the same house she was pretty much amazed. she could choose what colour she wanted her walls, she could change the furniture it was amazing.
moving to la was a chance to have a fresh start after the violent break up, the last break up, between rafael and rachael. the attack made on rae was terrible and could have cost her life only for the sake of an obsessive man who had a little too much to drink and was making food with a terribly sharp knife. with the last bit of money rachael had she rang her aunt from a pay phone and begged her to fly over, she stayed at a hostel for the homeless for the night before she was taken home. all this travelling weighed heavy on the pockets of the family, they had never been well off and plane travels were terribly expensive. ana came up with the idea for a brand new life and a chance to think about kara rather than rachael therefore they left a week after landing with no idea what la was like at all.
the move gave kara the chance to learn english also since she already knew greek and a little egyptian. her mother made a huge effort to learn english also but her aunt did not. actually her aunt died 6 months after moving to LA from a brain anurism which was unfortunate. kara was left home alone after her mother had to work days and nights to pay for the rent of the appartment. then rachael found a job which included accomodation in an amazing house, the mccarthy's needed a maid and they paid well as well as having a decent place for the 24/7 maid to stay so kara and rachael moved there. kara seemed pretty shy to start with afterall she'd been around the same people her whole life excluding the airplanes. however she began to relax into a slightly more unusual personality. her friendship blossomed with caesar mostly making her planning of a secret life difficult yet she made him swear not to say anything from the young age.
kara began her hobbies catered for by a very pleased adopted parents, well in her mind they were, and she learned fast. however aged 11 her mother became pregnant again and therefore quit her job with decent money and bought a small apartment for her daughter and the baby on the way. tori was born a day before kara turned 12 and therefore yet again she was neglected for someone else yet kara had learned many things to do with her time and therefore freequently visisted her old family, one that felt more of a family to her than her own. she enrolled in blair academy as a scholarship pupil yet dissapeared for her entire junior year and half her sophomore year as she was getting treatment for her cancer.
kara came back for senior year with the all clear, but not for long when she found out she had cancer again. she completed it only just and found a love of photography which kept her busy and also creative activities - nothing academic seemed to work after this new blow and so she scraped by her last year. during the summer kara traveled to egypt to meet her father yet she never found him and therefore wrote him off from her life for good and settled into writing college applications.
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[/size]but I understand your sadness so
I guess I should just hold my tongue ,
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[/size] hello, I'm deven[/color]. I play kara[/color] and his/her playmates, none[/color]. I myself have seen nineteen (oh my god...) [/color]summers and I plan to see a lot more, living the good life up in england , gmt[/color]. I've been in this part of town for many years [/color], so I know the area pretty well. oh! and did I mention that an advert[/color] told me about this island resort? he/she's a gorgeous thing. stalk me? well, my aim is nobodyLISTENSxx[/color], my msn's justmyluckymac@yahoo.co.uk[/color], and my email's nobodyLISTENSxx@hotmail.com[/color], . but, of course, you can always PM me. au revior !"[/size]
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December sighed lightly, she'd gotten here last night and already hated it so much she would rather be dead than trying to forget and fix her life. To December however, she'd done too much to others in order to have a life which was livably happy and what she wanted. She was sitting on the edge of the very uncomfortable couch in her room, a horrible mustard yellow colour, old; she could tell from the lumpy fabric and the stuffing that it was old, staring at the table where a tray was sitting full of food. a small box selection of cereals, cold toast, cold bacon, cold eggs yet she felt no inclination to stand up, walk over and get anything to eat even though she was feeling faint from being so hungry. All she knew was that if she ate she tended to throw up and then keep throwing up and since all she was in here for was bulemic actions she just had to not throw up and dispose of the food somewhere. So technically now she was acting anorexic but it was nothign to do with the fact she wanted to be thin, just guilt and depression. Yet she didn't want any sob story, pity or anything she just didn't really know what to do. She'd lost everything she knew because of her stupid feelings, which she'd deemed unreliable, life wrecking and highly dangerous; therefore refused to feel anything toward anyone else ever again, although her vows never had stuck to her in the past.
Standing slowley she strugged off the large dressing gown which seemed to swamp her thinning, unhealthy body and pulled on her grey jogging bottoms a stripey blue polo shirt which was baggy on her and made her look slightly back to her old self. However it was obvious she was feeling self conscious, which was not really known but December Cilmi - she was always the one in the short dresses flaunting her legs, wearing fitting clothes and showing off her body which she was happy with, thereofre she pulled on a zip up black hoodie and her black UGG boots before pulling the elastic band out of her dull looking hair. The showers were horrible so she'd simply shampood her hair and not conditioned it making it look dull, after all blondes have the worst look with makign their hair look shiny as it is science that blonde absorbs the light, not reflecting it - now do you see why they rarely use blondes on tv adverts about hair? December's hair hadn't been cut since her trip in London and was begining to get split ends which made it look a little worse that it should. noticing how horrible her hair looked she pulled the hood up over her head and left the hoodie unzipped. If she was spending her time here there was no one to impress and nothing requiring dressing up or looking amazing but there was the chance to walk around and have a look at what was happening.
The hallway had magnificent architecture although it was slightly old fashioned, needed a new coat of paint, new carpet and someone to clean the windows properly to let the glorious Italian sunshine flow through the large windows and let those window seats come to some sort of use. December stood, one hand lightly holding the heavy long curtains before brushing the dust off the red cushioned window sill. The warmth flowed throught he dirty window onto her back as she sat, back leaning against the coved wall with her feet on the sill, knees bent. She had a window like this at her grandmothers house where she'd pull the curtains over and sit on the sill with the windows wide open dangling her legs out letting the breeze and sun do whatever it wished to her. She lent her head back imagining that she was at her grandmothers house with her ipod on full blast just having a nice holiday away from drama yet still able to have contact and to see her brother. Kol was still in London and she missed him terribly, they were close but never understood eachother and after his latest suicide attempt. It seemed like all the Cilmi's were depressed, no that wasn't true. Their step sister Gabriella couldn't be more happy and their father had just won yet another election by a land slide, her mother - although she was a Hallen not a Cimi - was doing excendingly well and their grandmother was having a spa month, yes month not weekend or week.
What could you truely say about rehab? It sucked big time, despite the fact the Derby center had a high rate of success it seemed that they did nothing but deprive you from the outside world completely and make you lock yourself in the center and think. Thinking made things worse for December to be honest, she thought about everything way too much to make it a healthy thing - she over analysed every single detail, like an essay. She seemed to pick up every single reason why that word was used, what effect it had anything overly much that it would take her seven months to get past the first page - that was how she thought. Yes she was intelligant but never put it to any use, she'd rather have fun, be a good friend, although that wasn't happening anymore, and have a happy life, settle down with someone she truely loved, have a family and make all her big dreams come true. How amazing that would be to have everything you wanted although it never happened quite so simply as that. She knew she'd be on a musical stage in the future, just didn't know if it woud be broadway or the westend as a leading lady, even then if she got that she might never settle down with someone she loved and have a family - she might not be happy, might have to divorce lose everything. Life's a bitch, one that doesn't care about anyones feelings.
i love future blair (i can't do that heart thing XD)
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