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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 13, 2008 12:13:17 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] why wouldn't i care ? you broke up with me, remember. no, i'm not going to just pretend like she isn't there because she is there. she is right in my fucking way of getting what i want and while she is still there it just doesn't matter. not to you, atleast.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 14, 2008 19:36:55 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
nothing matters anymore.
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 14, 2008 19:37:43 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] why do you say that ?
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 14, 2008 19:43:35 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
in the end, nothing matters. there is nothing in the world but blood and chaos. people say there is love, they say there is happiness... but, no. it's false feelings the body makes to hide from fear.
so you say you want me. and i will admit i want you as well, but we both know, it's just lust.
there isn't anything such as love.
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 14, 2008 20:00:33 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] your thinking of it the wrong way. maybe it is supposed to be realistic, but you have to just look forward to the good things and not worry about the bad because no matter what you will get over it. you have to go through the pain before the pleasure, the rain before you get the rainbow, all those things.
you don't know what i think, noah. don't even act as if you do.
don't fucking say that, just don't.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 14, 2008 21:48:06 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
wow, that was pretty deep, hannah. i didn't know you had it in you.
okay, then what do you think? please, enlighten me on your thoughts, because i am obviously lost.
why fucking not? i mean, it's obviously fucking true.
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 14, 2008 21:57:02 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] was that supposed to be sarcasm ?
no, it isn't fucking true. just because you have a bad fucking experience with it does not make it completely fake and made up, alright ? it just means that you have to try again. nobody ever said it would be easy, but you have to try. i know for a god damn fact that i loved you, i don't know if you felt the same way, but even if you don't it doesn't matter at all, i did. there isn't any other way to describe it, not lust, not momentary infatuation, love. don't tell me otherwise.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 14, 2008 22:04:45 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
take it however you want.
you loved me. i still find that very had to believe. when you love someone, you don't just leave them, hannah. when you love someone, you don't fuck someone else while they are dying. to say goodbye to someone who is obviously so completely in love with you and needed you, that's not love.
so don't even fucking tell me, that you "loved" me. you never proved it to me, ever. all i ever fucking did was show you how much i loved you, it was all i felt like i was doing.
i loved once in my entire life time, and it wasn't appreciated. so how am i supposed to think about love, huh?
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 14, 2008 22:16:41 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] i fucked up. i always fuck up, it seems like the only thing i am good at. if you really believe that you won't trust me again, that you can't forgive me for what i did then, i don't know what else to do. i tried to prove to you that i did care, that i did love you, that i wouldn't mess up again and you slept with ivanna.
i guess this is how these type of things end up, right ? i screwed up, you screwed up. we are never going to work past this, things are aways going to be bad between us. god, i'm so sorry.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 14, 2008 22:23:06 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
everyone fucks up. but what you did, wasn't a fuck up, it was a nuclear bomb. it just never stopped, hannah. i could forgive you, for everything, i want to forgive you for everything.
but i can't get over the fucking fear of when if i do forgive you, and end up getting close to you like before, that you will see another guy and fuck me over, again.
i am never insecure, hannah. never. not in my entire life have i ever been insecure, but being with you for two fucking days? i am the most insecure person on the fucking planet.
doing what you did, it really fucks up a person, you know? it's not something you can just brush off and forget about, it sticks with you forever. yes, i did sleep with ivanna, and i hate to say this, because it is the last thing i ever intended it to be, but what goes around comes around, hannah. it can be a fucking bitch, can't it?
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 14, 2008 22:44:44 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] don't forgive me, then. if you want to continue like this, then fine. you've got your little " girlfriend " now, so run off to her. i don't care, i just don't care.
trust me. it would kill me to hurt you again, i'd rather die a thousand long painful deaths than hurt you, noah. i care too damn much and i hate feeling this way about someone who doesn't feel the same, but i guess that is how life is. such a bitch.
if you base your opinion solely on one thing a person has done, especially when they were half retarded and still in their teens, imagine what this place would be like.
yeah, it is a fucking bitch, but that isn't stopping me from being a fucking sap and saying all these stupid things that are like asking to be rejected. i'm still fucking trying even though i know that things will never be the same, that you aren't going to forgive me.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 15, 2008 5:41:09 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
you don't care, i doubt that. you just said before that you did care. you don't need to pretend, i know you do care.
hannah, life is too damn fucking short, mmkay? you just sometimes need to worry about yourself and forget everyone and everything. what you need to stop and think is, what do you want most in the world, right now? what do you think could make you the happiest person alive right now?
once you think of whatever it is, go like fucking hell for it and don't give up until it is yours and you are happy. that's all i have to say to you.
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 15, 2008 9:05:35 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] thank you.
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 15, 2008 15:34:52 GMT -5
LISTENING TO : - - - someday , flipsyde . - - -
trucker fucker , just stay strong. - - ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
i just want you to be happy. i have told you that many times before and i will kept saying it.
what makes you happy, hannah?
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Post by hannah scheaffer. on Aug 15, 2008 15:48:29 GMT -5
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Hannah
[/font][/color] Jane[/font][/color] . ( hanscheaffer@hotmail.com )[/blockquote][/blockquote] do i even need to answer that ?
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