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Post by havana alexander on Aug 9, 2008 2:44:18 GMT -5
no noah. keep going. i want to hear the whole part of it, i want to hear what comes next in our lovely little story
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 9, 2008 2:56:41 GMT -5
NOAH . ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
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you know what, fuck you havana.
you want to know our lovely little story? i will give you our fucking story. all my intentions were was to fuck you stupid and just toss you aside. but you know what? i couldn't fucking do that. you actually meant something to me and i didn't know how to handle that, so i went back to hannah, where it was safe.
there, are you satisfied now?
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Post by havana alexander on Aug 9, 2008 3:04:55 GMT -5
that's all ? you are such a retard noah. i a fucking pissed at you for using me, but you're a big boy now, you couldn't deal with the feeling of actually liking someone, and so you went back to the only person who could hurt you ? how stupid can you be
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 9, 2008 3:09:50 GMT -5
NOAH . ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
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i didn't use you, my intentions were all for using you, but i didn't.
havana, i was fucking married, don't you get that? unlike most people i take marriage very heavily. i was cheated on and i was left. and to feel something even remotely close to liking someone, i panic.
hannah hurts me, at least i am used to it and expect it out of her, with anyone else, i don't think i could take it.
there you are, miss havana alexander, or excuse me, soon to be mrs. havana evrett.
so go on and live your life, forget about me, just like everyone does, and i'll just be another person in another time, at another place to you.
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Post by havana alexander on Aug 9, 2008 3:14:40 GMT -5
so you're mad at me for marrying jet ? you're mad at me for getting a chance to do what failed for you ?why can't you just be happy for me noah, i'm in love with jet, he's who i'm meant to be with. and you aren't just another person to me, you are noah tucker, you are the boy my brother hates, and who i trusted, and who i admire for being a good father and a good friend, most days
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Post by noah tucker . on Aug 9, 2008 3:20:14 GMT -5
NOAH . ( ntucker@hotmail.com )
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i never said i was mad at you for any of that, did i? no, i didn't. you want me to be happy for you and wish you good luck? then fine. good luck.
but could just ask me to do that without rubbing my failed marriage in my face, but you know, thanks for your concern and consideration.
if he's the one you're meant to be with, then fucking fine, havana. really, go be with him then. you don't need to tell me that shit.
well i am so glad i am so much to you, really.
you want to know why i am mad? i am pissed at myself for being stupid, i am pissed at myself just because... well, i am noah fucking tucker. i have self-loathing problems you have no clue about, i hate myself so much, but you know what, that's all good, it's fine.
i'd rather feel hate than pain.
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Post by havana alexander on Aug 9, 2008 3:24:27 GMT -5
i'm sorry that you feel that way noah, about yourself, about everything. i'm not trying to make you feel bad, if that's hwat you do think. and i'm sorry that we might not get over this whole thing with our relationship intact. i truly am sorry noah, i never meant to make you hurt
havana has signed off
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